Thank you for your responses, they are much appreciated. I'll try to respond to them within a day or two and I will write something longer soon.
I've just been busy, feeling incredibly tired and a bit crap, which for part of the week was matched by the weather a mixture of clouds, heavy rain and the wearing of coats that should normally still be packed away at this time of year. The emotional pain I felt was joined by a physical pain which necessitated a trip to dentist and some expensive follow up work to come.
That said I'm better than I was last week but then it couldn't have got much worse so the only way was up.
Hope you are fine wherever you are.